independence day

i forget how easy it is to lose myself,
how quickly it is that i forget.

each day i must casually dismiss
all the little actions
that conflict with who i am

the values are forced to slide as i
neglect to eat a wholesome breakfast,
dress myself in a uniform way,
drive my car to work,
use the time i have on someone else's agenda,
refrain from being
myself...

slowly she slips
and i'm stuck living in the habits.
slowly she suffocates
to the point where i can't breathe.

and, it is always at this moment, that i break.
in desperation i come bounding forward
refusing
to submit

i triumph
and finally feel free

until
i forget





4 July 2010