a two~parter

...late night hours, staggering hope, faltering health...


how do i relax when i see the world crumbling around me?
for years, i have been marching forward, repeating,
"all will soon get better."

yet, it only gets worse.

each month becomes more lean than the prior
and, already, i've skimped every where i can.

i have sacrificed so much through this process that i shiver over
how little
i have

left



14 december 2010


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enlightenment


having always known hunger i constantly ache to be full.
always needing,
i over-indulge,
to a place where i can only be

stagnant

to move freely we must always maintain enough room for expansion.
without this space
we remain stuck
in our habits

the lethargy is killing me.
without change we are nothing.

i must embrace my hunger
if i ever hope
to be

present




20 october 2010